Yup, you heard me. I'm still alive and kicking, but not in the way you expect it much. Recently, as I've learned the passing of @SlushiePop after her final post here in Newgrounds about 2 months ago, I realized if other people, not just the ones who are still fine, but the rest of the underappreciated people who are still aspiring to be at least get featured or be recognized as a part of this community. Sadly, not all of us are going to get this easily, and I know why. For starters, me being one of the new users from 2022 onwards, I still can't handle the fact that people start to lose their shit from time to time, and I get it. As a person who faces constant anxiety since the end of High School and the start of College, it's pretty much frequent for all early adults (ages 19 - 25) to have this kind of tendency, and it still bugs me why do we even need to commit suicide if there are still other people who appreciate your work and still support you regardless of how people see your talent in their own perspective. I know, I am one of them since I tried to post my art there since last year, but as I looked in the Art Portal, Music Portal, and Movie Portal, there are other works that aren't getting a good rating and sometimes, they were burned to the grave where, in totality, every other garbage work is literally gone for various reasons or no reason at all. I do not wish to pick a nerve against you guys since it's new to me for the longest time, and I could be expecting hateful comments and violent reactions because of this but take this as a grain of salt and not a salt in the wound.
You guys are the ones that built my childhood altogether since I was small, but let's not put down on others, saying that they have no potential at all. I mean, I can post my art whenever I want to, but the anxiety, doubt, and the nervousness get the best of me. It's fine if you find it nonsensical or downright stupid, but I just want to say that you are worth more than anything. If I could talk to my past self, he would've said "That's a cool drawing you got there!" or "You're a better artist than I am. I wish I could be like you someday.", just to show you that somehow, wholesomeness is one of the great medicines that would alleviate your hardest times and maybe someday, you'll see that it's all worth the effort. Until then, keep going artists! I know you can!
P.S. Of course, the business side comes along so it's best to keep it as a hobby or a passion project from time to time. It'll work out someday. I mean it.